i could, but i isn't.
stories of a constantly-pained individual.
26 December 2007
villain
Someone I adore reached out to me yesterday. And all I could do was think of myself and make her cry. She always used to say that I am 12 years old. Last night, I proved it.
Hi Phish, the most important thing about a lion's hug lies in recognising it in the first place. One could be fooled into thinking he wants to maul you, but if you let it actually happen, it turns into magic. Am really sorry that you didn't recognise it yesterday. Here's wishing you a 2008 with another lion and another hug and this time, may you recognise it whether you're 12 or 24 or 36 or whatever.
smiling dolphin - the lion was missing. i became an extremely basic human. full of anger, hatred and jealousy. thanks for the hug. and the wishes.
nisha punjabi - is it really better? i know what you mean but i really dont want to sort it out.
meraj - wish you would complete your thought. or are you merely agreeing with the fact that i am just about to enter my teens? troubled or otherwise :)
void - i am all for apologies. but this is a trifle complicated :)
videoxy - loneliness mostly. or self pity. and she cried because i was just being me.
educatedunemployed - it is. refer to last post. clinging onto some semblance of twelvehood. will forever.
Sometimes when faced with emotionality, we can't help using our old defenses because it's our most basic way of reacting. You feel bad, you are aware of it, perhaps you can make it up to her. I hope so.
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Hi Phish, the most important thing about a lion's hug lies in recognising it in the first place. One could be fooled into thinking he wants to maul you, but if you let it actually happen, it turns into magic. Am really sorry that you didn't recognise it yesterday. Here's wishing you a 2008 with another lion and another hug and this time, may you recognise it whether you're 12 or 24 or 36 or whatever.
well.. the fact that you understood that ..makes it way better. so be an adult now and sort it out!
thats what...
A heartfelt apology is a sure sign of maturity.
Did she cry from pain? From recognition? Because things are still the same? Because they are different?
It's impossible to be unaffected by someone else's crying.
Yet, as my friend Ariana says, "sometimes it's not about you".
Were you making her cry because you wanted to, or because you were being who you are?
I would like to be allowed to be 12 some time. Being a grown up all the time is hard work.
smiling dolphin - the lion was missing. i became an extremely basic human. full of anger, hatred and jealousy. thanks for the hug. and the wishes.
nisha punjabi - is it really better? i know what you mean but i really dont want to sort it out.
meraj - wish you would complete your thought. or are you merely agreeing with the fact that i am just about to enter my teens? troubled or otherwise :)
void - i am all for apologies. but this is a trifle complicated :)
videoxy - loneliness mostly. or self pity. and she cried because i was just being me.
educatedunemployed - it is. refer to last post. clinging onto some semblance of twelvehood. will forever.
Sometimes when faced with emotionality, we can't help using our old defenses because it's our most basic way of reacting.
You feel bad, you are aware of it, perhaps you can make it up to her. I hope so.
devilmood - maybe in a couple of thousand years i will. i am glad you dropped by. you've been sorely missed.
heart wrenching in 4 simple lines.
d.h.roark - really? felt the same way actually :)
We always learn from our mistakes, dont we?
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